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@$%&*()P**&%%*I%()(*&(()$#%%^%&^&^&&^@#$ !!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

WHAT IS WRONMG WITH YOU???????

my life condition is hitting rock-bottom.....i flare up easily n get so frustrated with myself out of no apparent reason.

HELLLOO...CHUILING YOU R NOT A KID ANYMORE.

i know that but i feel like i am running away from sth. i know i should do sth abt it but i dun have the motivation to do it...i feel juz so so so so tired of everything

HOW LONG HV YOU NOT DOING EVENING GONGYO????

for as long as i remember...wad now?
i know what i should be doing....CHANT!!!!!!!!
but knowing doesnt mean i'm pushing myself for action

i juz want to cry.......
:-(