friendship or relationship

i am really guilty and down. i'm the one that literally destroy the friendship among us. i know i should'nt have done that to him. even he replied yes to my sms, i dun think i'll have the face to see him. i doubt he'll want to see me anyway.
when i told him the truth after sometime, i should have known. it'll break his heart. now, he's giving me cold shoulders. can someone tell me what to do? i really dun wan to lose this fren of mine.
and now, the idiotic third party LW is "invading" into my life. GUILTY. it's really heart-wrenching to go through all these. so what if i have lots of guy frenz, alot of frenz surrounding me. this isn't wad i wan.
FRIENDS. izzit really true that guy and ger cannot be best fren...juz frenz and nothing else. why guys have to think so complicated. frenz mah...wad's wrong with juz being frenz. i wanna cry. izzit frenz supposed to be really good and supportive...to be there for you when projectsg goes wrong? why are they treating me this way. izzit really my fault? that i destroy the friendship with my own hands??